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Title: Loss of interest in bhakti
User: NAVIN VYAS Date: 2007-08-03 18:27:37
My Dear Gurudev Maharaj,
Please accept my humble Pranam at your lotus feet.
I am writing you this because I feel very guilty and discouragement. I lost the charm of my devotional service to Nityananda-Gauranga. Prior to this each day I worship the deities inour home temple, first thing in rhe morning. I used to get up bathing,arti, ghee divo jyoti and prasd offering. After that I worship Tulsi maharani and circumbulating after offering the ghee lamp. Past two weeks I am telling my self that I will do it starting tommorow which has not come yet.
I wonder why is this Gurudeva?? Has Lord Nityananda got offended for any of my shortcomings? I used to chant few round of Nityananda and Gauranga followed by Hare Krishna Mahamantra. I now have a zero bhakti which makes me sad. I do not get up early in morning any more and I feel physically very tired most of the time. I used to bow down infront of the deity on my knees and many times dandavat. Now, I just bow down with folded hand standing. I know this is degridation and worst fall. Will you pray and please bless me to go on forward in Bhakti and come out from my complaisancy? Why one falls like this? I hope this is last for me. I am praying and requesting all devotees to pray for me to go back to where I was and advacement from there onward.
Thank you very much.
Title: Re: Causes for loss of interest
User: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2007-08-04 00:26:06
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! Jaya Guru Parampara Acharyas! Pranams and Blessings ! Thank you Navinji for the honest and heart-felt words about your loss of interest in Naam Bhajana and Bhakti Yoga. To inquire from Guru and the Vaishnavas at this time, is a very important step to get back the taste again. I can broadly state that the causes for this can be any one or more than one from the ones listed below:
(1) Wrong or non-devotee association.
(2) Excessive material attachment or false ego.
(3) Offenses towards devotees or Lord.
(4) Eating of food not cooked by devotees or not offered to the Lord.
(5) Philosophical misunderstandings or deviations about Bhakti Yoga.
I have seen that the consciousness of our cook who cooks the food we offer to the Lord and then eat has a very strong effect on us and changes our consciousness very rapidly if not instantly. If the cook has no realization or conception of the Lord, then we also become apathetic to Bhakti within a short time. As the saying goes, "We are what we eat." So please check try to check the above parameters and work on them. Above all, one needs patience and one should chant Naam even if we have no taste because we are doing it for the pleasure of the Lord and to offer Him our gratefulness. A child learns to walk by falling many times but every time the child gets up and starts walking again. One day the child learns to walk without falling down. Shrila Gurudeva and Vaishnavas can pray to the Lord to give us His mercy but it is us who have to conscientiously avoid the above five things and make it easier for ourselves.
Daaso'smi, Swami Gaurangapada.