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Title: Nature of devotee and dilemma

User: Igor†††† Date: 2006-12-14 20:29:48

 

Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna

All glories toHis Holiness Swami Gaurangapada!

All glories to all devotees!

Dear Swami Gaurangapada and all assembled vaishnavas, please accept my most humble obeisances. Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna

 

 

Dear Swami Gaurangapada, it is described thatessentially there are two types of devotees - bhajanandi and gosthanandi. Evan in the firststages of devotional practice some may find that he or she is attracted more to his practice in solitude and that his or her nature is more of silent type. From the other side some may find thathe or she is very eager to preach, attend festivalsand associate with large number of devotes in order to preach. We have many examples of both types ofdevotees - for exampleGaura-kaisora das Babaji is well known example of bhajananda devotee, and Shrilla Bhaktisiddhantha Sarasvati Thakura is knownto be greatest preacher - "simha-guru".

First type of devotee only want to render some service and chant Holy Names, he or she is not eager to confront others or to preach to others,his or her attitude is more of inner type. Other devotee finds great desire to preach, to confront wrongconceptions etc. and his or her attitude is more of "external" nature.

 

Sometimes we may find that guru and Krishna is wanting something from devotee that is opposite to his or her nature. Shrilla Bhaktisidhantha Sarasvati Thakura wanted to send Shrilla Shridhara Maharaja to preach to west and Shrilla Shridhara Maharaja isspeaking about that:"My Guru Maharaja wanted me to go to the West forpreaching, but I don't consider myself a fit person to preach in the West. Because, you see, I can't follow your intonation. I must listen clearly, then I shall tell. So, in this way, I told that if you order, I must go, but I don't think that I am fit to preach in the West. Anyhow, it was stopped, and Goswami Maharaja was sent to the West. I am ofreserved type, of reserved mood. I am a man of more thinking and less speaking."

 

What should devotee do if he or she is finding that his or her nature is more of reserved type, but from other side devotees and Krishna somehow or other encourage him or her to act differently? From one side devotee should obey desire of vaishnavas, guru and Krishna, and from other side he finds that he or she is unfit to do it.

 

Sorry for taking your precious time. Thank you very much.

All glories to all devotees.:ty:

Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!

 

Title: Re: Nature of devotee and dilemma

User: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-12-15 05:49:09

 

One should surrender to the instructions of our Gurus even if we think that it is against our devotional "nature" or "inclination". Because in the conditioned stage our understanding or perception of our own nature or inclination is imperfect. Our Gurus are more advanced and realized to see what is actually best for us in the long run as per the svarupa of our soul not because of our present inclinations.

 

Bhajananandi or solitary bhajan is only meant for the most advanced souls who have done kirtana or preaching for many many years in this life or previous lives and the heart has been purified not to revolt or rebel in a solitary place but instead deeply meditate on Naam. For all the other devotees, by preaching the Naam to others in whatever capacity one is comfortable with, one own's quality of Naam bhajan increases by the mercy of Naam.

 

While doing solitary Naam, no one is there to stop us and see us and inspire us when we are falling down in our bhajan. So unless we are sufficiently advanced, solitary bhajana may lead to our falldown. As it is said, attack is the best form of defense, if we distribute the Naam to others, then Naam will protect and defend us more from the constant onslaughts of Maya which are inflicting us. Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! Jaya Guru Parampara! Pranams :pranams: and Blessings :bless:!

 

Title: Re: Nature of devotee and dilemma

User: Igor†††† Date: 2006-12-15 08:17:08

 

One should surrender to the instructions of our Gurus even if we think that it is against our devotional "nature" or "inclination"

Thank you for your answer. I needed it. If I understand properly our real nature is that we are servant of Lord but we falsely accepted some subtle or gross material identification and think and behave according to that imaginary identification. Yes, that is only true answer because our real nature must be eternal relation with devotees and Lord. All other "inclinations" are just temporary flickering of our conditioned state. Just like person in dreams may think - "Oh I am king, rich and wealth, or - Oh I am poor, unhappy person." But our great fortune is that Lord Nityananda, out of His great mercy, do not allowing us to dream in our illusion, and dispel it by sending His representatives to direct us and guide in our path. Thank you for being here to wake me and guide. All glories to you! Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!

 

Title: Re: Nature of devotee and dilemma

User: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-12-15 09:30:01

 

Thanks and welcome back Igor. Your posts brought life to the forum and we had been eagerly waiting for your return. Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! Jaya Guru Parampara! Pranams :pranams: and Blessings :bless:!