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Verse 52: Giving up all useless attempts for spiritual
ha hanta hanta paramoshara-citta-bhumau
vyarthi bhavanti mama sadhana-kotayo’pi
sarvatmana tad aham adbhuta-bhakti-bijam
shri-gauracandra-caranam sharanam karomi (52)
Explanatory Translation by BRS Swami Gaurangapada:
Verse 52: "Alas! Alas! Alas! I am doomed. Since my heart has become an extremely unfertile and barren desert due to my heinous offenses, millions of seeds of spiritual practices and pious deeds fail to sprout there in spite of my repeatedly sowing them. Thus I have now decided that I will give up all my useless attempts to engage in such spiritual practices and instead with all my full heart and endeavor, I shall plant in my heart the strikingly wonderful seed of pure devotional service of exclusive shelter to the Lotus Feet and Holy Name of the Supreme Lord Gauranga Mahaprabhu, which will certainly bear fruit in my despondent heart."