Post Author: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-01-13 16:27:19
Unexpected Realization By Bhakta Igor
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! All glories to Swami Gaurangapada! All glories to Shrilla Prabhupada! All Glories to Guru Parampara! All glories to most glorious and merciful Nityananda Naam and most confidentional and sublime Gauranga Naam!
I want to share one most wonderful experience that happened to me this morning. I hesitated to write about that but I decide to tell my experience in order to glorify chanting of Nityananda and Gauranga Mantrarajas and Swami Gaurangapada. I must say that for long time (for more thet 15 years) I was trying to chant and hear Hare Krishna Maha Mantra, and follow rules and regulations, but for all that years I did not feel even one drop of taste for chanting? Chanting was just duty, more or less mechanical routine while my mind or senses were occupied with something else. I also must say that I was amazed when I had read Naam realizations on forum from Swami Gaurangapada and recently Nava Gauranga, I even in one moment thought Is this really so? Is this possible? I have some theoretichal knowledge and positive answer in my hearth, but no realization. I hesitated to write about that, but I must tell what happened only to cry out glories of chanting Nityananda and Gauranga Mantrarajas.
This morning I chanted 16 rounds of Nityananda and 16 rounds of Gauranga Mantrarajas ( I am chanting little more then standard 10 rounds in chanting table) in front of Shri Shri Nityananda Gauranga and soon after I started to chant Hare Krishna Maha Mantra my mind become one-pointed and focused. That was not product of my mental efforts, that causeless mercy just appeared and I started to chant Hare Krishna without distraction and feel so blissful and calm at the same time. It is hard to me to describe it properly, but for moment there was nothing but Holy Name.
I pronounced syllables of mantra without any effort or anxious concentration and maybe most accurate description will be complete self-forgetfulness. Suddenly, in next moment in my mind, appeared most beautiful picture in wide forest playing field cowherd boys was sitting around Lord Balarama and Lord Krishna, who enjoyed in wonderful atmosphere of Vrindavana. It is hard to me to explain that experience. Picture was very vivid and in that moment I was continuously chanting Maha Mantra while watching that most beautiful scene. Lord Balarama was sitting on left, dressed in wonderful blue garments with blue turban on His head. His complexion was white and many cowherd boys were sitting near Him. Actually, I was watching that scene from left distance side cowherd boys and Lord Balarama. At same time I was feeling presence of Lord Krishna and other half of cowherd boys on right side, but my vision was focused on Lord Balarama and His associates. I continued to chant and chant and while chanting Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare I felt very blissfully and happy. I just remember that I thought in that moment Oh here is my Lord Balarama, Haladhara, He is strongest off all and most powerful!
In next moment complete scene changed I saw Lord Nityananda Prabhu sitting on stone throne dressed in blue garments. He placed His lotos feet on head of devotee who was prostrated before Him in dandavat. His right lotus foot was placed on devotees head and His right hand was above knee with open palm and directed toward me. I was chanting and simultaneously, I thought All glories to Most Mercifull Nityananda Prabhu! Vrajendra nandana yei saci suta hoilo sei balarama hoilo nitai! Somehow or other those words appeared in my mind while I was looking at this most beautiful scene. I continued to chant and after some moments I become aware of my surroundings, time and place. I felt happiness that can not be compared with some material thing or sensation. I was bewildered because I had never experience anything like that.
Automatically I know that was mercy of chanting Nityananda and Gauranga Mantraraja, but that was not all. Few days ago I asked Swami Gaurangapada to please give me his blessings so that I can chant nicely because I know that by my effords it is immposiable for me to chant nicely. Out of his causeless mercy he gave me his blessings for Naam Bhajan. Dear Swami Gaurangapada, I am falling down before your lotus feet in great joy and happiness because such small realization happened to this fool only because you gave me your blessings. I am completely aware of that fact and I am writing this realization only to glorify you and to inspire all readers of forum please chant Nityananda Gauranga and your life will become perfect and sublime. If you have any doubts please just chant and soon you will know siddhantha within your hearth. Please just chant Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!