Post Author: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-01-13 16:27:19
Remove That Light By Swami Gaurangapada
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! One of favorite holy places of meditation during Nityananda, Gauranga, and Hare Krishna mantra meditation is where my three Lords sit together and discuss Krishna Katha. It is in Shantipur Dhaam. It is the seating place of my three Supreme Lords, Lord Nityananda, Lord Gauranga and Lord Advaita, at the back of Lord Advaita's temple. Today when I was chanting Their Holy Names with deep concentration, I could clearly see the three Lords sitting there. All three were more effulgent than millions of suns. I saw them sitting in a divine palatial room. I remembered the description of their effulgence in Gaura Govinda Smarana Archana Paddhati. Not able to keep my eyes open in front of so much divine light, I closed my eyes and fell on the ground and started rolling on the ground in bliss. I remembered how Shrila Narada Muni also could not keep his eyes open when Lord Krishna showed to him His most exquisite form of Lord Gauranga for the first time in the eternal abode of Dvaraka Dhaam.
I thought to myself about how insignificant I am and I am still trying to see the Lord. I felt like a dwarf trying to catch the moon. I became enveloped in the light. I remembered the verse in Shri Isopanishad...hiranmayena patrena satyasyapihitam mukham...Oh Lord, remove this effulgence so that I can see Your lotus face. And lo and behold, the Holy Names again came to my rescue. Only the Holy Names of Nityananda, Gauranga, and Hare Krishna can take us beyond the light (brahmajyoti) coming from the Lord. No other means is so powerful to penetrate into this great secret.
As I chanted Nityananda, Nityananda...I could penetrate into the light and suddenly see Lord Nityananda sitting on the right of Lord Gauranga. His lotus head was looking down. So beautiful. As I am typing, I am feeling how material words are totally incapable of even coming anywhere close of even trying to describe that beautiful form of Lord Nityananda which I saw. Droplets of tears from His eyes looked a line of pearls falling from His lotus eyes. He was so much in bliss. He was taking long blissful sighs while taking the Holy Names of Lord Gauranga. All His hairs stood on end due to the close proximity of His Lord and Master Lord Gauranga Mahaprabhu. As I am typing this I myself feel like going into a trance to see that divine scene again. Oh even typing has become a big burden and austerity now. Oh why do I have to do anything else except beholding Their beauty??!!! There are many other pastimes I saw but I will continue later. Let me again get absorbed in Them. I feel like a fish out water without meditating on Them while chanting the Holy Names. If the Holy Names of Nityananda, Gauranga, and Hare Krishna were not there, all my meditation would be a waste, as only when I chant the Holy Names, They show me more and more scenes of the divine pastimes of Their Lordships Shri Shri Nityananda and Gauranga. Oh I would be rotting in the deepest and darkest hell if the Holy Names of Nityananda and Gauranga had not risen in Kali Yuga.
hiyara majhare gauranga rakhiye, virale vasiya rabo manera sadhete se rupa candere, nayane nayane thobo
"Keeping Gauranga inside my heart, I will sit alone in a secluded place and fix my mind on His enchanting moon-like form while chanting His Holy Name. I will gaze in His eyes and become absorbed in His beauty."