Post Author: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-01-13 16:27:19
Mahaprakash and Japa By Swami Gaurangapada
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! While chanting, I was meditating on the great 21-hour Mahaprakash pastimes of the Supreme Lord Gauranga Mahaprabhu which is the Chapter under discussion in the evening Chaitanya Bhagavata lecture. I am praying and begging to Lord Gauranga to please give me birth in any of the universes where He is next going to perform this most confidential pastime which He did not perform in any other incarnation.
The mercy of this Mahaprakash manifestation was so super-excellent that all devotees of all the various partial incarnations of the Lord appeared in Lord Gauranga's pastimes simply to receive the full mercy of Lord Gauranga Mahaprabhu, the ultimate Avatari (source of all incarnations).
Ohh as I chant the Holy Names today I feel like beating my head to death about why I was not born 500 years ago. Why did I miss the Lord by such a narrow margin. How condemned am I for this calamity to happen to me?
Anyway now my only hope is Lord Nityananda's lotus feet. I will hold them so strongly while chanting His Holy Name that one day He will have to grant me His mercy and take me into these divine pastimes.