Post Author: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2007-12-12 21:24:04
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! Jaya Shri Guru Parampara! Pranams! I would like to share some realizations during my Naam Bhajana today:
(1) I felt very absorbed in the Holy Names. I did not feel like engaging in any other activities even other forms of devotional service if they would distract me for even a moment from the nectar of Naam Bhajana. I confess that one does feel like a bhajananandi when one deeply chants the Holy Names. I remembered the pastime when a devotee went to call Shrila Sarasvati Prabhupada from Mayapura to come and preach Sankirtana in this world. He was chanting his 1000,000,000 (one billion holy names) in nine years fully absorbed in Naam Rasa. So he told the devotee that the real Sankirtana is going on here in Navadvipa and whether he can see that. Saying like that, he went and jumped in the Ganga in the bliss of the Holy Names having no intention to go to Kolkata with that devotee for preaching. Unless one dives deep in the nectar of Naam Bhajana, preaching will become a burden and when one dives deep in the nectar of Naam Bhajana, even at that time preaching becomes a burden sometimes because the Holy Names spiritually overwhelm us fully. Ironical, isn't? But one thing is for sure, the great Goshthyanandi has to become a great Bhajananandi internally first so that he or she can share the pure Naam Rasa with others.
(2) I realized a tiny drop of how the eight-fold daily pastimes (ashta-kaliya-lila) in Goloka are the greatest mercy of Lord Gauranga Krishna upon the souls in this material world so that they can meditate on, remember and connect these transcendental pastimes 24 hours a day and become fully aloof from Maya's influence while remembering His Holy Names. One has to simply chant the Holy Names and think about what the Lord is doing now in Goloka as per scriptures.
Daaso'smi, Swami Gaurangapada.
Post Author: Bhakta Igor Date: 2007-12-12 22:12:50
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krsna Thank you so much dear Gurudeva for sharing this realizations. From material platform I also had "similar" realization that any other activities that is not directly associate with devotional service or topic become so painful for me to do. Simply without taste. All struggle for material name, fame, and gain simply became burden. I am in situation where I must act and earn for my family, many times talk nonsense with business people for whole day etc. while crying inside to reside in Dhaam absorb in Naam. That is also very ironical, but newertheless I am not losing hope!