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Title: Chanting Struggles

User: Neil LA Date: 2007-05-10 17:46:45


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!

All Glories to Swami Gaurangapada!

All Glories to the Guru Parampara!

All Glories to the Vaisnavas!


I'm feeling somewhat despondent today. I wasn't able to wake up early to chant in the morning. My alarm went off and I kept setting it ahead until I woke up at the latest possible time and so didn't do any chanting at all.


Now I'm stressing out a little bit, because I am wondering when I will get time to do any chanting. If I use my lunch hour for chanting, I can get six rounds in. Its been taking me about ten minutes to do each round. But that still leaves me ten rounds to complete this evening. Plus I want to do all sixteen rounds of Nityananda and Gauranga as well. That ususally takes me an hour. If I do all my chanting straight through, it will take me about three and a half hours.


Yesterday I was able to get up early and complete all of my rounds of Nityananda and Gauranga and also do four rounds of Hare Krishna before I went to work. Then I was able to do six rounds at lunch and six rounds in the evening.


I really feel like I'm whining a bit, and I'm sorry if I am. I really want to complete all my rounds everyday and make chanting my number one priority, but I find myself sleeping later and then wanting to do other things in the evening,


The day before yesterday, I slept in late again and wasn't able to chant at all in the morning or at lunch. In the evening, I was able to get a few rounds completed, but I wasn't able to do all sixteen. I got frustrated and gave up.


Next week, we're going to LA to look for a new place to live. I would like to be able to complete my rounds while we're there, but my friend says that I shouldn't worry about it if I can't do all of my rounds. I'll try my best to get up and I'll also be able to have some time in the morning while Stephen is at the gym, but I am worried that I won't be able to finish all my rounds.


I want to be strict and dilligent about chanting all my rounds everyday, but I also want to be able to be relaxed about it and not get all stressed. Sometimes I feel that the pressure I put myself under to try to complete my rounds somewhat defeats the purpose of chanting. I also want to do my rounds well and focus on high quality chanting.


Maybe I should give myself a break and not try to chant 16 rounds of the three mantras each day. Thats what some friends and aquaintences say. My friend Stephen says he doesn't understand why I am so obessed with chanting 16 rounds every day. I try to explain to him that chanting 16 rounds is the minimum standard, and that I very much would like to recieve initiation and to do so I have to be established on 16 rounds a day for six months.


I just feel that if I don't force myself to chant the full number every day, then I will get into the habit of doing less and less and I will never reach the goal of being established on 16 rounds every day and recieve initiation. I really really want to revieve initiation and a spiritual name. I feel that until I can recieve a spiritual name, I am just playing around with being a devotee. When I'm able to get a spiritual name, I will prove to myself that I am serious about being a devotee.


The only solution that I can see is getting up earlier every day to do my chanting in the morning. Someone suggested that I break it up into four rounds four times a day. Well four rounds takes 40  minutes and I'm not sure when in the day I can give myself four 40 minute breaks. I take one 15 minute break in the morning and another 15 minute break in the afternoon and an hour at lunch. Thats enough to chant maybe eight rounds. Then I could do the other 8 all at once in the evening...I guess I could do it.


I find that if I don't finish my chanting by 8pm, I really have  little time to do anything else. I'v e been trying to cook bhoga for offering in the evenings as well and if I do that, I don't get finished much before 9 and then I don't get to bed much before 10 and then I'm too sleepy to get up in the morning. It feels like I'm in a vicious cycle.


I'll just keep trying my best.


Title: Re: Chanting Struggles

User: Matus  Date: 2007-05-11 07:46:37


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!


Dear Neil, thanks for Your sincere posts.    My experience and realizations:


It is important to finish every day without fail one's fixed number of rounds. In my opinion, it doesn't have to be straigth sixteen. Better less but without fail. Even if it has to be just 1,2, or 4 rounds. Then Lord will be pleased with our sincerity and determination and bless us to be able to increase our chanting and find the necessary time.


If You want to maintain the standard of 16-16-16, then i think there isn't other way in Your present situation then to wake up early in the morning and chant in brahma-muhurta.


Me personally i chant 20-20-10 currently and somehow get it everyday to be done. Of course i am chanting everywhere, in the bus, while shopping, japa walk, even riding the bicycle. As i neither can't wake up normally in the morning, due to lack of time i have to then chant anytime possible. Somehow i can still concetrate while chanting, for which i thank the Lord. Of course the best would be to sit down and chant without any other activity, but that is also not possible for me , because of need of movement. So i prefer often a japa walk. Fresh air, light movement, Nityananda Nityananda Nityananda Gauranga Gauranga Gauranga Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare... Yes i think, japa walk is nice for me. But part of the rounds i think should still be done sitting and trying not to do anything else.


i hope it helps somehow.


Yours sincerely,




Title: Re: Chanting Struggles

User: Neil LA Date: 2007-05-11 16:18:05


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!


Thank you  Matus for your help. I think you're right. I think that getting up early in the morning is really my only choise. I also think that chanting throughout the day is a good thing as well. I think getting out for a japa walk is a good idea.


I very much want to maintain 16-16-16 and I plan to do whatever it takes to do.


Today was better than yesterday. I was able to get up earlier. Not during the Brahma-Muhurta, but still early enough to chant all 16 of Nityananda and Gauranga. Just having that taken care of early relieves some of the pressure.


Yesterday, I was able to complete 16 of Hare Krishna, so I was thankful for that.  I am comitted to completing my rounds every day.