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User: Neil LA Date: 2007-06-07 22:44:57
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!
All glories to Swami Gaurangapada, the Guru Parampara and all the Vaishnavas!
Being unemployed has really made me not keep a schedule very well. I'm still chanting, but I am having difficulty maintaing the standard of 16 rounds a day.
I feel somewhat conflicted (so what else is new? )
I still have a strong desire to try to maintain the 16 round a day standard. I have this desire because I strongly desire to receive hari nama initiation and recieve a spiritual name. I don't now why I desire this so much. I'm sure I will be the same person whether I have a spiritual name or not. I feel that if I had a devotee name, I would be considered to be more committed to the spiritual path that I would be if I just remain Bhakta Neil.
But on the other hand, I want to be realistic about my current ability and status as a devotee. I know the Holy Names purify me and that the more I chant, the more I develop a taste for chanting...but I feel that I am having a real struggle to complete 16 rounds a day. I'm thinking that I might tell myself that its ok to just try doing half that amount each day. Part of me says, "yes, that's fine. Every bit of chanting you do is wonderful and helps to lead you back to Godhead," but another part of me feels like I am somehow making excuses for not being able to complete the full standard.
At this point, I will now tell myself that its ok for me to go down to 8 rounds of Hare Krishna and 16 rounds of Nityananda and Gauranga each day. I feel that this is much more workable and doable. I will give it a shot and keep chanting and see how it goes after a few months.