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User: Bhushan Date: 2006-07-18 11:01:35
humble obiesances at the lotus feet of Gurudeva
obiesances at the lotus feet of all devotees
All Glories to Nityaannda Gauranga and Hare Krishna Mahamantra
I had a wonderful realization yesterday,from which I learnt that the greatest treasure i have is Nityananda Gauranga Mantrarajas.
Yesterday night after i went off to sleep pretty late, I had a horrible nightmare.In that I saw myself enjoying all kinds of material things,all kinds of sense gratification and I was terrified,i was soo scared,I did not want to enjoy,but somehow or other some conflict was going on and some part of me only was going after material enjoyment,and I was fighting.It was alluring more n more n i was trying best to fight,n i was fighting loosing battle.Its diificult to explain but I was figting against all this,but it was useless attempt. I got so scrared and terrified,thn seeing that i cant do anything against this.I remebered Lord Nityananda and cried in sleep "Nityaaaaaananda help,save me,i dont want to enjoy,i want to serve You,help"
And immidiately, I actually saw all those material things getting destroyed right in front of my eyes.All of it was crushed n it was uprroted n thrown away,and the night-mare no longer there.
And I suddenly felt a very soothing feeling,calming feeling,passing over me.It was beautiful.And then I felt very nice and happy and thn i dont remember,probably i went into deep sleep.Today morning I woke up.I remebered the whole thing,n even how in desperation i cried Nityaaaaananda.
I remebered the story of Ajamila.
But most of all i remebered the verse from Chaitanya Bhagvata composed by Shrila Vrindavana dasa Thakura
samsarera para hai' bhaktira sagare
ye dubibe se bhajuk nitai-candere
One who would cross over the ocean of material existence and swim in the bhakti ocean should worship the lotus feet of Nityananda. (Cb. Adi 1.77)
Nityananda Mantra Shakti, Gauranga Gaura-Gopala,Hare Krishna Mahamantra sarva jiva uddharaka
aspiring to be humble servant of your lotus feet
Bhushan Nityananda dasa
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