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Title: Another Weekend of Struggle
User: neilsf Date: 2006-10-18 12:23:21
Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!
All Glories to Gurudeva Swami Gaurangapada and the Parampara!
All Glories to all Vaishnava Devotees!
Well, it was my birthday this past week. I took some time off of work and that was nice.
I got together with some friends and also saw my mother.
I was able to keep up with my chanting (mostly) even thought I did some things that aren't really in keeping with being a Vaishnava.
I figure that if I just keep chanting, the other things will come eventually. I want to follow the regulative principles, but I'm not sure exactly how to do it...
If I just keep chanting, I know that I will develop a higher taste and that the taste for things that aren't condusive to devotional service will go. I'm feeling very impatient with myself...
Just keep chanting Nityananda, Gauranga, and Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare!
I really trust that if I am faithful to my chanting commitment, no matter what, Nityananda will have mercy on me and help me to overcome my bad habits.
I went out with a friend yesterday and didn't fufill my chanting commitment. I want to always remember that chanting the Holy Names is the ONLY thing that matters in this world....
I really feel that if I just keep chanting, I will be bound to win, eventually. I want to chant like my life depends on it, because it does.
I am dependent on Lord Nityananda's mercy and the mercy of Shri Guru, Swami Gaurangapada! If I haden't come into contact with Swami Gaurangapada, I would never have leart about the power of Nityananda and Gauranga's Holy names and I would never have had a chance to recieve the Lords' mercy.
I offer myself at the Lotus Feet of Shri Swami Gaurangapada and I willingly submit myself to his mercy. I aspire to serve Swami Gaurangapada and the Vaishnavas in any way I am able.
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