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Kabe Ha’be Bala

Shrila Bhaktivinoda Thakura

 

kabe ha’be bala se-dina amara

(amara) aparadha ghuci’, shuddha-name ruci,

kripa-bale ha’be hridaye sancara (1)

 

Please tell me, when will that day be mine when my offenses will end and a taste for

the pure holy name will be infused in my heart by Your mercy?

 

trinadhika hina, kabe nija mani’,

sahishnuta-guna hridayete ani’

sakale manada, apani amani,

ha’ye asvadiba nama-rasa-sara (2)

 

When will I feel myself lower than a blade of grass, and when will the quality of

tolerance come in my heart? When I will show respect to all others and not seek honor

for myself, then I will taste shri-nama-rasa, the nectar of the holy name.

 

dhana jana ara, kavita-sundari,

baliba na cahi deha-sukha-kari

janme-janme dao, ohe gaurahari!

ahaituki bhakti carane tomara (3)

 

Wealth, followers, beautiful women as described in worldly poetry - I do not want

any such bodily pleasures. O Gaurahari, please give me unmotivated devotion to Your

lotus feet birth after birth.

 

(kabe) karite shri-krishna-nama uccarana,

pulakita deha gadgada vacana

vaivarnya-vepathu, ha’be samghatana,

nirantara netre va’be ashru-dhara (4)

 

When, while uttering shri krishna-nama, will my body be thrilled in ecstatic rapture with

my hairs standing on end, my words choked with emotion, pallor and trembling

occurring, and streams of tears flowing constantly from my eyes?

 

kabe navadvipe, suradhuni-tate,

gaura-nityananda bali’ nishkapate

naciya gaiya, bedaiba chute,

batulera praya chadiya vicara (5)

 

When, in Navadvipa on the banks of the Ganga, will I run about, calling out without

duplicity, “O Gaura! O Nityananda!” and dancing and singing like a madman,

unaware of the outside world?

 

kabe nityananda, more kari’ daya,

chadaibe mora vishayera maya

diya more nija-caranera chaya

namera hatete dibe adhikara (6)

 

When will Nityananda Prabhu be merciful to me and release me from the trap of sense

enjoyment? When will He give me the shade of His lotus feet and allow me to enter

the marketplace of the holy name?

 

kiniba, lutiba, hari-nama-rasa,

nama-rase mati’ hoibo vivasha

rasera rasika-carana parasha,

kariya majiba rase anibara (7)

 

I shall buy and plunder the nectar of the name of Hari and, becoming thoroughly

intoxicated by that nama-rasa, I shall become stunned. By touching the feet of those

great souls who are able to relish that rasa, I will drown continuously in the sweet

nectar of the holy name.

 

kabe jive daya, haibe udaya,

nija-sukha bhuli’ sudina-hridaya

bhakativinoda, kariya vinaya,

shri-ajna-tahala karibe pracara (8)

 

When will compassion for all fallen souls awaken in me? When will this Bhaktivinoda,

forgetting his own happiness, with a meek and soft heart set out to propagate by

humble entreaty the sacred order of Shri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu?