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Kabe Ha’be Bala
Shrila Bhaktivinoda Thakura
kabe ha’be bala se-dina amara
(amara) aparadha ghuci’, shuddha-name ruci,
kripa-bale ha’be hridaye sancara (1)
Please tell me, when will that day be mine when my offenses will end and a taste for
the pure holy name will be infused in my heart by Your mercy?
trinadhika hina, kabe nija mani’,
sahishnuta-guna hridayete ani’
sakale manada, apani amani,
ha’ye asvadiba nama-rasa-sara (2)
When will I feel myself lower than a blade of grass, and when will the quality of
tolerance come in my heart? When I will show respect to all others and not seek honor
for myself, then I will taste shri-nama-rasa, the nectar of the holy name.
dhana jana ara, kavita-sundari,
baliba na cahi deha-sukha-kari
janme-janme dao, ohe gaurahari!
ahaituki bhakti carane tomara (3)
Wealth, followers, beautiful women as described in worldly poetry - I do not want
any such bodily pleasures. O Gaurahari, please give me unmotivated devotion to Your
lotus feet birth after birth.
(kabe) karite shri-krishna-nama uccarana,
pulakita deha gadgada vacana
vaivarnya-vepathu, ha’be samghatana,
nirantara netre va’be ashru-dhara (4)
When, while uttering shri krishna-nama, will my body be thrilled in ecstatic rapture with
my hairs standing on end, my words choked with emotion, pallor and trembling
occurring, and streams of tears flowing constantly from my eyes?
kabe navadvipe, suradhuni-tate,
gaura-nityananda bali’ nishkapate
naciya gaiya, bedaiba chute,
batulera praya chadiya vicara (5)
When, in Navadvipa on the banks of the Ganga, will I run about, calling out without
duplicity, “O Gaura! O Nityananda!” and dancing and singing like a madman,
unaware of the outside world?
kabe nityananda, more kari’ daya,
chadaibe mora vishayera maya
diya more nija-caranera chaya
namera hatete dibe adhikara (6)
When will Nityananda Prabhu be merciful to me and release me from the trap of sense
enjoyment? When will He give me the shade of His lotus feet and allow me to enter
the marketplace of the holy name?
kiniba, lutiba, hari-nama-rasa,
nama-rase mati’ hoibo vivasha
rasera rasika-carana parasha,
kariya majiba rase anibara (7)
I shall buy and plunder the nectar of the name of Hari and, becoming thoroughly
intoxicated by that nama-rasa, I shall become stunned. By touching the feet of those
great souls who are able to relish that rasa, I will drown continuously in the sweet
nectar of the holy name.
kabe jive daya, haibe udaya,
nija-sukha bhuli’ sudina-hridaya
bhakativinoda, kariya vinaya,
shri-ajna-tahala karibe pracara (8)
When will compassion for all fallen souls awaken in me? When will this Bhaktivinoda,
forgetting his own happiness, with a meek and soft heart set out to propagate by
humble entreaty the sacred order of Shri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu?