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Akshepa

Regret

Shrila Narottama dasa Thakura

 

gora pahu na bhajiya mainu

prema-ratana-dhana helaya harainu (1)

 

Alas! Failing to worship Shri Gaurasundara, I have neglected that most precious treasure

of prema and have thus lost it.

 

adhane yatana kari’ dhana teyaginu

apana karama-doshe apani dubinu (2)

 

I have devoted myself to worthless trifles, throwing away my real wealth and am

drowning in my own misdeeds.

 

sat-sanga chadi’ kainu asate vilasa

te-karane lagila je karama-bandha phasa (3)

 

Forsaking the association of sadhus for temporary enjoyment with non-devotees, I am

caught in the snare of my own karmic follies.

 

vishaya vishama visha satata khainu

gaura-kirtana-rase magana na hainu (4)

 

I constantly drank the deadly poison of sense objects rather than becoming absorbed

in the nectar of singing the glories of Shri Gaurasundara.

 

kena va achaye prana ki sukha paiya

narottama dasa kena na gela mariya (5)

 

“For what type of pleasure do I maintain my life?” Narottama dasa laments, “Why do

I not simply die?”