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I Have One Doubt


Ramananda Raya then petitioned the Lord,



 eka samshaya mora achaye hridaye

kripa kari' kaha more tahara nishcaye

pahile dekhilun tomara sannyasi-svarupa

ebe toma dekhi muni shyama-gopa-rupa

tomara sammukhe dekhi kancana-pancalika

tanra gaura-kantye tomara sarva anga dhaka

tahate prakata dekhon sa-vamshi vadana

nana bhave cancala tahe kamala-nayana

ei-mata toma dekhi' haya camatkara

akapate kaha, prabhu, karana ihara


“My Lord, I have but one doubt within my heart, and I hope You will kindly remove it by Your grace. At first I saw You appear like a sannyasi, but now I am seeing You as Shyamasundara, the cowherd boy. I now see You appearing like a golden doll, and Your entire body appears covered by a golden luster. I see that You are holding a flute to Your mouth, and Your lotus eyes are moving very restlessly due to various ecstasies. I actually see You in this way, and this is very wonderful. My Lord, please tell me without duplicity what is causing this”

The Lord replied that those who are deeply absorbed in a loving relationship with Krishna are all first-class devotees. As a result of their natural love of Godhead, they realize the presence of their worshipful Lord Shri Krishna everywhere, as they look upon all varieties of moving and nonmoving objects. The objects of their observation do not appear before them as they are, but they appear differently in relationship with Shri Krishna. Here are some quotations in this regard from the Shrimad-Bhagavatam.


sarva-bhuteshu yah pashyed

bhagavad-bhavam atmanah

bhutani bhagavaty atmany

esha bhagavatottamah


“The first-class devotee perceives everywhere the presence of Shri Krishna, who is the life of all lives, and in Shri Krishna they perceive the presence of all animate and inanimate objects.” (Bhag.11.2.45)


vana-latas tarava atmani vishnum

vyanjayantya iva pushpa-phaladhyah

pranata-bhara-vitapa madhu-dharah

prema-hrishta-tanavo vavrishuh sma


“The jungle trees and creepers full with their fruits and flowers bowed before the Lord with feelings that Shri Krishna is their vital life. In a mood of transcendental cheerfulness and ecstatic joy, the trees and creepers poured forth large amounts of honey in His presence. This was possible due to their pure love of Godhead.” (Bhag. 10.35.9)

Lord Chaitanya continued to speak:


radha-krishne tomara maha-prema haya

yahan tahan radha-krishna tomare sphuraya

“You have deep regard for Radha and Krishna, and as such you can perceive Their presence anywhere and everywhere.”

Ramananda Raya was not, however, satisfied at heart with this answer given by Lord Chaitanya, although the words of the Lord were certainly correct according to shastra. Thus he said,


raya kahe¾prabhu tumi chada bhari-bhuri

mora age nija-rupa na kariha curi

radhikara bhava-kanti kari' angikara

nija-rasa asvadite kariyacha avatara

nija-gudha-karya tomara¾prema asvadana


anushange prema-maya kaile tribhuvana

apane aile more karite uddhara

ebe kapata kara¾tomara kona vyavahara


“My Lord, please give up this roundabout way of revealing Your true personality. Kindly do not try to hide Your real identity. I know who You are: You are Shri Krishna Himself covered by the complexion of Shrimati Radharani. You have descended to relish the ecstasy of Your transcendental pastimes with Her. The main purpose of Your appearance is to relish the feelings of Your devotees’ love for You and simultaneously to distribute that love throughout the three worlds. You have come to me out of Your own accord, so how is it that You want to hide Yourself now?”