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Title: June 14 Naam Realizations: White Rice and Shak Experience

User: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-06-15 17:55:11


Location: On the train to Navadvipa.


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! While chanting the Holy Names of Nityananda, Gauranga, and Hare Krishna, I went to the Shri Tota Gopinatha temple to see my most worshipable and beloved Deity of Lord Tota Gopinatha worshiped by Shri Gadadhara Pandita. Shrinivasa Acharya dasa from Mumbai was with me and one more devotee. When I entered the temple, I was chanting and deeply meditating on the pastime when Lord Nityananda brought the most finest white rice from Bengal for Lord Tota Gopinath and how Shri Gadadhara Pandita cooked it for the Lord with special shak vegetables and how Lord Gauranga could smell the fragrance of this offering from Gambhira and rushed to Tota Gopinath for honoring the Prasadam.


At that time while chanting, a deep and wonderful fragrance of this maha prasadam of Lord Tota Gopinath entered into my nose and I felt goosebumps all over my body. I could understand that the Holy Names have the power to reveal every aspect of the Lord's pastimes. The Holy Names of Nityananda, Gauranga and Hare Krishna are touchstones fulfilling all my desires.


While chanting, I could hear Lord Gauranga telling Shri Gadadhara Pandita, "O Gadadhara, Lord Nityananda's rice, your cooking and Gopinath's maha, and you did not invite me? Why Why Why? Anyway I have come without invitation to join you in this feast." As I was chanting mentally with my tongue moving a little but not the lips, I could feel Lord Gauranga present in the main hall of the Tota Gopinath Temple. I took some deep breaths as if trying to inhale the fragrance of Lord Gauranga divine body and that of Lord Gopinath's mahaprasadam and fill my consciousness fullly with it.


Then while deeply chanting, I looked at the form of Lord Tota Gopinath and I could see His lotus eyes so open that He was stunned in ecstasy and He trying to blow the Holy Names of Shrimati Radha in the flute and inform Her about the night meeting place and pastimes. I becamse stunned to see this. The Holy Names were again showing me that Lord Gopinath is not stone, He is there playing the flute. His flute is so so enchanting. While chanting, I could easily meditate on Lord Tota Gopinath's flute for hours if not days. Then I began chanting intensely and felt the strong urge to sing some kirtana loudly but some devotees were chanting verses of the Gopala Sahasra Naam so I became more absorbed in my own chanting.


Shri Tota Gopinath is the most divine and special place in creation, most ideal for bhajan. When I go there while chanting the Holy Names, I always feel the direct presence of Lord Gauranga, Lord Tota Gopinath, Lord Nityananda, Shri Gadadhara (Shrimati Radha) and I can see Lord Advaita also dancing there in bliss. I thanked Gopinath for giving me the realization of the glories of His maha prasadam. I kept on chanting and looking intently at His face and Lord Gopinath showed me His lotus face of Lord Gauranga like He always does. He is Gaura Gopinath. I remembered how Shri Shri Radha Ramana in Vrindavana manifested from one Shaligrama and became one in front of the lotus eyes of Shrila Gopala Bhatta Goswami as Lord Gauranga Mahaprabhu.


I was meditating like this while chanting the Holy Names constantly. And lo and behold! The greatest miracle happened. The new mahanta of Tota Gopinath Krishnadasa Maharaja and the head pujari came and requested us to sit down. And they brought some empty leaf plates. And I could not believe the next thing which happened!!! They came with pots of white rice and shak (spinach) just like what I had meditated during my chanting. The offerings of Lord Tota Gopinath has just come out. This was the last rice offering till Ratha Yatra. I immediately had profuse tears in my eyes. I could not believe that the mahaprasadam which I had the divine fragrance of during my chanting meditation was actually right in front of me. I could not honor it immediately as I could not see due to the ecstatic tears in my eyes. This was the first time I had the good fortune of tasting Gaura Gopinath's rice and shak. I could understand that Gopinath has been merciful to us as the mercy had come to us due to His causeless desire. The taste of shak as we ate defeated the greatest nectar of the heavenly planets. Oh I can become an insect in Tota Gopinath temple to taste this maha prasadam daily. For this one time, I threw away my vow of not eating grains which I am following for more than two years now. How can I refuse this divine Gopinath mahaprasadam which I have been meditating on for months and years while chanting? So please remember all devotees, all perfection and all desires will be fulfilled by chanting Nityananda, Gauranga, and Hare Krishna. Never ever doubt this even for a moment.


Oh when I will get the supreme Mantra Siddhi in chanting Nityananda, Gauranga and Harinama and can directly participate in these divine pastimes! I went to Gambhira, Siddha Bakuka and Sarvabhauma Math and had beautiful chanting realizations there but I will talk about them some other time. I am very enthused by the feedback of devotees to my last realization so I keep on writing these realizations. Please keep your mercy coming to me through your feedback and realizations too.


Title: Re: June 14 Naam Realizations: White Rice and Shak Experience

User: Igor     Date: 2006-06-15 20:51:41


Please keep your mercy coming to me through your feedback and

realizations too.


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! It is such great inspiration to hear

such nectar pastimes! Tota Gopinatha ki jay! I am humbly offering you my

most deepest dandavats and humbly praying to become engaged in such

sublime chanting of Nityananda and Gauranga Mantrarajas. I am praying to

Lord Nityananda, who is most merciful, to help me so that I could become

insignificant insect-servant to such mahabhagavata like you. By hearing such high  rare realizations, there is some hope that just by chanting Nityananda and Gauranga some day this fallen soul will maybe feel particle of such realization.


Ohe vaishnava thakura doyara sagara ei dase karuna kori.

Please, o vaishnava Thakura, please be merciful toward this fallen

servant. There is no qualification in me, no virtues, only desperate

desire to get particle of your mercy, so that some days my hearth could

also dive into unlimited ocean of chanting. There is no other way of

success, guru krishna prasade paya bhakti lata bija only by getting your

causeless mercy there can be some hope for me. Just like you felt

instant urge to broke your vow and ate grains I am feeling great urge to

leave all my material conciseness and this useless material life and

just chant Nityananda and Gauranga standing in front of Tota Gopinatha.

What is value of our life if we can not serve Lord? There is no value!

What is value of this material struggle?

If I would not be able to get your mercy what is value of this life?


By hearing this I am not sure how long will I remain in this great

separation from vaishnavas and most merciful Lord Nitaycandra, who is

victorious Balarama and crest jewel of Nadia – Gaurachandra! I am surerly

greatest offender and therefore I was cursed tto be born in this hellish

country so far away from pure devotees, blisfull Navadvipa-dhama and

most confinebtial Jaganatha-Puri Dhama. By hearing this story my iron hearth

is melting and desire to simply reside on the shore of Jaganatha Puri

Dham is overwealming me. What is value in all other things? Hari hari

biphale janama gonainu radha –krishna na bhajiya. I am waisting this human

form of life.


Shri guru karuna sindho, but you are ocean of mercy, so out of your causeless mercy please, please consider this urgent cry and help this fool. Otherwise how will this fool be able to chant Holy Names? I do not have any valuable realisation about Naam, I just have fragile faith that by simply being in touch with you some drop of mercy will came to this dry hearth so that I will be able to chant and cry Nityananda! Gauranga! yogyato vicare kichu nahi pai! If you examine all three worlds you will not find greater rascal then me. If I do not get your mercy,then I will simply cry - because there would be no other mean to mantain this useless material life.Tomara karuna sara! Your mercy is everything!


Please let me always be in the shadows of your teachings, let me blind translate your words, let me with my lame faith  cross mountains if that is your desire. By hearing your  realisations my hearth dance and I have some hope to someday reside on the shore of Jaganattha Puri, smeling fregrance of divine rice and shak from Tota Gopinatha Temple and simply dive in waves of Nityananda and Gauranga Mantrarajas. Doyal Nitay Chaitanya bole nace amar man, nace amar man!


Title: nothing more pleasing

User: Matus  Date: 2006-06-16 07:54:21


Our dearest Swami Gaurangapada Maharaja,

Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!


Thank You very much for Your wonderful realisation. Please keep on sharing with us. There is nothing more pleasing than to read such realisations revealed by the mercy of the Holy Name and Holy Dhama. These realisations are giving faith and taste for the Holy Names and they are increasing the wish and desire to return to our eternal home, Shri Navadvipa-Puri-Vraja. When i remember Your sweet realisation again i feel like taking the japa beads in my hand and surrendering to the Holy Names.


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!


Jaya Tota Gopinatha! Jaya Shri Gauranga Mahaprabhu! Jaya Shrila Gurudeva!


Please accept my humble obeisances at Your Lotus Feet.


Your aspiring servant,




Title: Re: June 14 Naam Realizations: White Rice and Shak Experience

User: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-06-16 14:48:38


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! Igor, thankyou for your kind realizations and genuine humility. Chanting Nityananda, Gauranga, and Hare Krishna Naam is so sublime that it will take one directly to Goloka irrespective of where one is situated and what is one's occupational duty. So keep on doing the Naam seva very deeply and all perfection will come. krishna-kripa yanre, tare ke rakhite pare...


Title: Re: nothing more pleasing

User: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-06-16 14:50:36


When i remember Your sweet realisation again i feel like taking the japa beads in my hand and surrendering to the Holy Names.


Thanks Matus, if my realizations inspire devotees to surrender more and more to the Holy Names, I will keep on penning them down.


Title: Re: June 14 Naam Realizations: White Rice and Shak Experience

User: Igor     Date: 2006-06-16 16:11:17


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! You are most kind. There is no genuine humility in me. If I would have real humility I will chant Holy Names constantly – kirtaniyah sada hari, but that is not reality.


Yes, Naam is so sublime, but I am so unfortunate that I do not have taste for chanting. So what I can do? I am repeating mechanically syllables of mantra, but iron-hearth is still here and tears do not flow from my eyes. I am only weeping because I do not have such taste. That is fact. I do not have taste to chant. Your advice is nice krishna-kripa yanre, tare ke rakhite pare, but that was appropriate for such great devotee of Lord like Shrila Raghunatha Goswami. He was detached from this material world and that was possible for him, but what will soul like me do? Only if you stand for me before Nitai, if you said – here is one helpless soul – please Nitai consider this urgent cry and bestow your mercy, only then I will get some hope.


yugayitam nimesena

caksusa pravrsayitam

sunyayitam jagat sarvam

govinda virahena me


Title: Re: June 14 Naam Realizations: White Rice and Shak Experience

User: JagannathaGaurangadasa     Date: 2006-06-18 00:09:21


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna!


Thank you for sharing these vivid realizations. Your sharing these experiences are like wonderful jemlike secrets. It is so nice to hear about these esoteric occurences that only a liberated paramahamsa could experience. It is extremely rare for one to be able to see and enter the pastimes as you can do on a regular basis, so I am very glad that Lord Nityananda has sent such an exalted soul as yourself to eternally guide my devotional services. I don't think someone not freely distributing the names and pastimes of Lord Nityananda and Lord Gauranga could save me from material existence with all the offenses in my heart. I surely do not deserve such a perfect guide as yourself, but I guess that is why Nityananda is the most merciful incarnation of Godhead, he wants to distribute love of God to even the most fallen.

Again thanks for sharing these types of experiences, and as I advance more myself, I am sure that the subtle intricasies of these realizations and pastimes of the Lord will be revealed to me and I to will float in waves of bliss. Your chanting experiences really give me impetus for chanting, and help remind me of the rare treasures that lie within the Holy names of the Lord.


Title: Re: June 14 Naam Realizations: White Rice and Shak Experience

User: Swami Gaurangapada Date: 2006-06-18 02:01:19


Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! Thankyou Jagannatha Gauranga dasa for your kind words. If my chanting realizations help devotees even a little to become attached to Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna Naam Bhajan, I will me most happy to keep them flowing even though it is said that apanara bhajan katha, na kahiba anyatha...because my whole existence is to serve the devotees of Lords Nityananda Gauranga.